Monday, April 03, 2006

When I'm away she puts her makeup on the shelf

Still getting over my cold from two weeks ago. I'm going to make some tea when I am on my last break here at work tonight, but I really want to just kick this whole being sick thing.

Went shopping with S and his cousin Nate yesterday. Looked at hiking boots and sleeping bags and got to hear every salesperson say, "Wow! Alaska!" in a jealous way. Earlier at chapel, when S told people he was leaving, their reactions went like this:

a) looking at me and giving me the "pity look," and then
b) excitement/"I-want-to-go" kinds of statements, followed by
c) comments about being eaten by bears, concluded with
d) have a great trip/we'll be praying for you.

It's weird right now, because I want to offer him extra support and encouragement and affection and tell him reassuring things, but I also want to kind of detach, get ready to let him go, get used to him not being around. I know I will be okay, but that look of pity I keep getting reminds me how much I really like S and how much I enjoy his presence and how much I might miss him.

In other news, there may be T-Mobile coverage in Juneau and surrounding areas, so if he could find a safe place to keep his phone while he's out in the wilderness fending off those bears, he might keep his plan alive. This means I could potentially be able to leave him voice mail and let him know when I work and things so he could call back.

Ugh, this is going to be strange.

1 comment:

Jenny said...

The time will pass more quickly than you realize.